life after now
greetings mortals I am so so so so excited to go off to college. I literally cannot wait to be on my own away from this claustrophobic life that I am currently just stuck in. This upcoming summer.. i MIGHT go live with my boyfriend upstate and I am really really really on the fence. I love him dearly and of course I want to be with him 5ever but at the same time, I love the location that I live in now and truly don't want to give up my shitty lifeguarding job at the local pool. Maybe I can swing a job at like the local forest service or also at a local pool, it would have to be a 40-hour work week though bc my grown ass would be paying rent LMAO. Also not like this would ever happen but like what if we break up? Then I'm going to have to move my ass out probably all alone and im damn near three hours away from home! Or like what if something horrible happens back at home and someone needs me and my happy ass is miles away? IDK but like at the same time I'll also be at college for the next like eight months anyways so like might as well get used to it. okay but after college or something like that I want to live near the coast in my 20's. CALL ME CRAZY IDK but I keep seeing videos that are like GO SOMEWHERE ELSE IN YOUR 20S FOR THE LOVE OF GOD and the ocean calls my name ever single day and i really cant ignore it for any longer. I need my damn toes in the sand asap and its not a joke. My hair thrives in the salt water, im basically a mermaid. I just want a tan and to be sunkissed with cute little braids in my hair in a tiny bikini with my 20 yea old body. I cannot live near the beach once my body is old and saggy like every old person does ever. I need to be young and beautful at the beach and no one can stop me alr NO ONE. No one here knows my heart blood body and SOUL belongs at the beach. I hate when people that are born and raised in a landlocked state claim they were made for the beach and thats where they're meant to be NO YOURE NOT YOURE MEANT TO BE IN A BOG DO NOT LIE TO MEEEE. Idc that I'm gatekeeping a geologic feature piss off, thats my beach. Okay but also at the same exact time, where the hell am I supposed to move on the coast? NOT florida, NOT texas, NOT alabama, NOT anywhere upper east coast (maryland, rhode island, etc) that leaves like NC, SC, Virginia, NJ and georgia. My cousin lived in Georgia for a hot minute and she hated it so much so i might have to scratch that off my potential list. When I visited virginia it was lowkey really nice there. Humidity through the roof. we weren't really in a trumpy part of town, it was so coastal granddaughter vibe, hometown cozy, I loved it there. I always thought that place would be the devil but like just aim for the Potomac and you're good apparently LMAO. My only concern is that my lovely dear boyfriend is not going to want to come with me on my 20's adventure and either I'll never get to live it out or I'll have to go live it alone which is truly the saddest thing that I can imagine. I just want to build a little life in a coastal town. and hey if america goes down the shitter like we all know it will, me and pookie boots can always just move out of country to iceland HAHAH
thought chain over :P